Monday, 9 March 2009
My Dear Friends,
My mind is playing tricks on me. I have a routine bone scan on Wednesday. Now I'm dreaming about doctors and nurses giving me bad news about spreading.
Other than throwing my back out last week (reaching for a towel!)I feel fine. I hope the back doesn't show up badly on the scan.
This is so scary. I am still not used to it.
I had a good heart test a couple weeks ago, thank God.
As I was sitting and waiting, I had started to feel sorry for myself. Then they wheeled in a woman who was bandaged from her fingertips to her elbows, a burn victim. When the indelicate technician asked "What happened to you?", all I could make out was the word "grease". I stopped feeling sorry for myself because I could not bring myself to cry in front of this brave woman.
The upcoming bone scan is weighing heavily on my heart. I just want a normal life. I just want to live. I had a pang of jealousy at work when a payroll service rep was talking to someone about being pregnant with her third child. A normal life.
I am also worried because I promised God I'd meke two quilts for the homeless after my last positive bone scan but I've only made one. I'm afraid he'll zap me now. I hope to go buy some clothing on sale to donate & make up for it.
Not sleeping well. Have a wicked case of tennis elbow from using the cane too much.
I guess that's all my complaints for now. :)
Today I get the results of my (nervewracking) monthly comprehensive blood test. They always take it around the 1st.
Please pray for me ... again.
Love,
Jeanette
My mind is playing tricks on me. I have a routine bone scan on Wednesday. Now I'm dreaming about doctors and nurses giving me bad news about spreading.
Other than throwing my back out last week (reaching for a towel!)I feel fine. I hope the back doesn't show up badly on the scan.
This is so scary. I am still not used to it.
I had a good heart test a couple weeks ago, thank God.
As I was sitting and waiting, I had started to feel sorry for myself. Then they wheeled in a woman who was bandaged from her fingertips to her elbows, a burn victim. When the indelicate technician asked "What happened to you?", all I could make out was the word "grease". I stopped feeling sorry for myself because I could not bring myself to cry in front of this brave woman.
The upcoming bone scan is weighing heavily on my heart. I just want a normal life. I just want to live. I had a pang of jealousy at work when a payroll service rep was talking to someone about being pregnant with her third child. A normal life.
I am also worried because I promised God I'd meke two quilts for the homeless after my last positive bone scan but I've only made one. I'm afraid he'll zap me now. I hope to go buy some clothing on sale to donate & make up for it.
Not sleeping well. Have a wicked case of tennis elbow from using the cane too much.
I guess that's all my complaints for now. :)
Today I get the results of my (nervewracking) monthly comprehensive blood test. They always take it around the 1st.
Please pray for me ... again.
Love,
Jeanette
posted by Mark Kappe @ 5:15 AM
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