Sun, 15 October 2006
My Dear Friends,
Not looking forward to sleeping tonight. Always have nightmares the night before chemo. Last time I dreamed that a man in a white mask (like Jason of slasher movie fame) came to the front door of my grandma's old house in Detroit. I closed the door and went back into the house. When I walked into the dining room, I saw him standing in the bushes and looking in the window, in between the curtains. His face was just above the window ledge.
"I've come for you!" he said.
Yikes! I was glad to wake up that time!
Let me get philosphical on another subject. Briefly, because it's 10:30pm and I have a heart test tomorrow AM. Turns out they registered me for the wrong type of test last week. A MUGA is where they inject a radioactive substance into your veins and watch it cycle through your heart. I'm having a 2DEcho, which is more like a heart untrasound. Luckily, I caught the mistake and changed the appt.
I am reading "Out on a Limb" by Shirley MacLaine. She's into reincarnation, karma, past lives and channeling of disembodied spirits. I remember seeing the movie on TV years ago.
Some main premises are that we've all lived before and that we keep coming back to work out our issues. If you struggle in this lifetime the next will be easier. (So I'll be Paris Hilton next time, what?)
It also says that if we have challenges in this life, we are atoning for sins of a past life which we are not allowed to remember due to the convenient "veil of forgetfulness". I felt like throwing that book through a window when I read that. I'm sorry. If I was Hitler, I'd really like to know about it!
There are some fundamental flaws in all this. Shirley MacLaine is a wealthy woman. Seems to me she is reassuring herself that she deserves it. All the while, she is having an affair with a married man. Doesn't this mess up her karma?
Furthermore, if the wealthy are being rewarded for good things in past lives, the poor are being punished. How can we justify donating to the poor under these rules? Won't that hinder them from paying their dues? Who are we to prevent their spiritual advancement? I just don't buy it. Seems like a ready-made excuse not to help others and to dismiss poverty as necessary. It's also a good excuse for her to hang onto her own money. After all, she deserves it.
Now, I'm only halfway through so maybe it'll change but some of this is hard to swallow. Then again, the Catholics had been telling me my whole life that if you do something wrong, God punishes you. So what did I do? I'm not crying "why me!" right now. Just asking.
It's interesting how the reincarnation people accept certain things as fact. They are just as certain about their beliefs as we Christians are about the things we believe. We can't both be right.
Maybe we're all just guessing.
Later!
Jeanette
Not looking forward to sleeping tonight. Always have nightmares the night before chemo. Last time I dreamed that a man in a white mask (like Jason of slasher movie fame) came to the front door of my grandma's old house in Detroit. I closed the door and went back into the house. When I walked into the dining room, I saw him standing in the bushes and looking in the window, in between the curtains. His face was just above the window ledge.
"I've come for you!" he said.
Yikes! I was glad to wake up that time!
Let me get philosphical on another subject. Briefly, because it's 10:30pm and I have a heart test tomorrow AM. Turns out they registered me for the wrong type of test last week. A MUGA is where they inject a radioactive substance into your veins and watch it cycle through your heart. I'm having a 2DEcho, which is more like a heart untrasound. Luckily, I caught the mistake and changed the appt.
I am reading "Out on a Limb" by Shirley MacLaine. She's into reincarnation, karma, past lives and channeling of disembodied spirits. I remember seeing the movie on TV years ago.
Some main premises are that we've all lived before and that we keep coming back to work out our issues. If you struggle in this lifetime the next will be easier. (So I'll be Paris Hilton next time, what?)
It also says that if we have challenges in this life, we are atoning for sins of a past life which we are not allowed to remember due to the convenient "veil of forgetfulness". I felt like throwing that book through a window when I read that. I'm sorry. If I was Hitler, I'd really like to know about it!
There are some fundamental flaws in all this. Shirley MacLaine is a wealthy woman. Seems to me she is reassuring herself that she deserves it. All the while, she is having an affair with a married man. Doesn't this mess up her karma?
Furthermore, if the wealthy are being rewarded for good things in past lives, the poor are being punished. How can we justify donating to the poor under these rules? Won't that hinder them from paying their dues? Who are we to prevent their spiritual advancement? I just don't buy it. Seems like a ready-made excuse not to help others and to dismiss poverty as necessary. It's also a good excuse for her to hang onto her own money. After all, she deserves it.
Now, I'm only halfway through so maybe it'll change but some of this is hard to swallow. Then again, the Catholics had been telling me my whole life that if you do something wrong, God punishes you. So what did I do? I'm not crying "why me!" right now. Just asking.
It's interesting how the reincarnation people accept certain things as fact. They are just as certain about their beliefs as we Christians are about the things we believe. We can't both be right.
Maybe we're all just guessing.
Later!
Jeanette
posted by Mark Kappe @ 7:31 PM
0 Comments:
Post a Comment
<< Home